Acting Without the Drama

February 27, 2009.  I hurt.

It’s not so bad that I can’t move around.  In fact, there’s moments where I don’t feel any significant pain at all.

But I feel tender.  Exposed.  Raw.

I also feel very inconsistent.  One second I’m fine, the next I’m not.

I keep expecting myself to either get really bad, or to just get over it.  I’m not sure that it works that way.  I went through something fairly traumatic, and I guess that assuming it will “just pass” is unrealistic.  By the same token, I don’t want to make this bigger than it is.  People get into wrecks every day.

So, the way I’m choosing to handle it is to just observe what’s happening with me.  I’m simply paying attention.  If this were happening to anyone other than me, I would be fascinated by it (of course I’d feel bad for them, too).  I would be looking at it as a character study.

So, why can’t I do that right now?  The simple answer is that I can.  It’s a little tricky to objectively observe oneself, but I’ll see how it goes.

And then I’ll share whatever insights I find with you.  How does that sound?

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