Acting Without the Drama

July 2, 2009. It seems the further in to my psyche I go, uncovering ugly spots and stains, the better able I am to stay present and connected to the world around me. It also seems that there is no end to the stuff I uncover in there, but that’s an entry for another time…

Sometimes the marks that I find are ones that I put there (usually to cover up another, bigger blotch). Sometimes they are ones that were given to me a long time ago. The interesting thing is that it doesn’t really matter. The process is the same for both. I find the stain, then I clean it up.

It does sometimes feel like it’s easier for me to discover the stuff that I put there, but it’s more uncomfortable for me to look at. The stuff that was given to me is much harder to put my finger on, but I usually don’t feel a lot of shame when I finally uncover it. In other words, they’re co-equal.

Every time I find myself getting upset for no reason (or actually, a crazy reason), it means that I’m circling in on a behavior or thought pattern that I haven’t wanted to take a look at. Each time I stay soft and open so that I can discover what’s really going on, I’m able to connect more fully to those around me. My wife. My kids. My business partner.

This process is not always comfortable, but I really do love it. And I certainly love the results!

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